Yo! Anyone remember that post about my Florida story with the alligators? Same with my series of posts, The good, the bad, the meh.
I just kind of stopped doing those kind of posts- and while if you look back it wasn’t that long ago I made those posts, to a teen like me, 3 weeks ago is kind of an eternity!
You might even assume that my social posts stopped not out of deliberate choice, but simply circumstance. However, that’s really not how it is! I’m a workhorse about the weirdest things, and I could have very easily have continued my The good, the bad, the meh series, or write more about my time in Florida, without hestation…
If it weren’t for my European History test.
For me, the climax of my school life was all of last week. As some of you might remember, I had all of my most important final exams that week…
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And it is the final exam that I took last Friday, one week ago, that has caused me to decide to lock away the details of what happened in the week leading up to it. Mainly because it is just an embarrassment.
I made a small mistake, and then allowed that to evolve into a bigger mistake- and now that bigger mistake will probably lead to a whole bunch of mutual disappointment for everyone involved. Generally, the lesson that I got from the whole thing is that I can panic in the moment.
And my panic comes out in a very specific way. Whenever I feel stressed, my first reaction is to look at the cause. My second reaction is to not let it fester, but instead immediately let it out. Not in an explosive or destructive way- I really just like to walk around, or write, or even just think sometimes.
If one doesn’t work, another will- so I usually end up pretty calm at all times.
However, when you’re taking your most anticipated test in a cellar that you’ve never seen before- you tend to feel unusually stressed! And when you’re stressed, let me tell you this-
The worst thing you can do is try to convince yourself that you’re not! Don’t tell yourself that you’re okay when you’re not!
It’s super irrational, and it’s pretty destructive!
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And uh…
Yeah, I’m not explaining any further. Just know that a prideful guy like me got embarrassed by his failures to the point that I can’t even share them. That’s how bad it was for me!
I’m all for life lessons! And this isn’t actually a life lesson for you! It’s actually a lesson in modesty for a prideful narcissist, like myself.
There really are limits to what you can expose about yourself- and they can really be about the weirdest things! I wouldn’t blink about talking about my kindergarten crush, but I would definitely hesitate before telling someone my favorite tv series!
Our reasons are all so complex…
And for just one of those reasons, I retired my social posts…
Until some dude in one of the Humanities classes played My Hero Academia on the projector during class. And my first reaction was, “Aw… I wish I was in that Humanities class!”
Then my second was, “Who can I tell about this really funny thing?”
And it made me feel really disappointed in myself when I considered this blog, and decided against sharing this story because of my ego. I asked myself when I had become such a fearful person. When had I become so insecure that I would restrict my own happiness?
The answer was, “I don’t care- because I refuse to be that person anymore.”
So, here we are! Personal posts about my social life will probably be coming back in a week or so!
I can’t wait to complain about the cancerous group chat I’ve become a part of! You would not believe the memes! From Spongebob, to The Office, and even Zero Two! (With a good dash of pickleball jokes- the trew sport of free athletic activities)
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*bonus points to anyone who gets what the pickleball joke is based on*
I look forward to your personal posts when they come back, even if in a different form!
I kind of wish I had such a series on my own blog, because personal posts can be pretty fun to write (and I confess, I often love reading others’ personal posts more than their analytical content). The backlog is already too huge though…
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Yeah, I really like personal posts!
They’re really fun!
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Just my two cents:
You’ll always have a backlog to write about- if it’s about yourself.
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Hmm…I’m not quite sure what to make of that. Backlog as in anything about yourself will always be put off til later, or as in there will always be an enormous amount of things to write about when it comes to yourself? The backlog I was thinking of excludes anything about myself, and it’s already impossible to deal with!
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Yep… I guess I’m not helping…
I was arguing that means that it’s pretty hard to run out of stuff to write about!
Conversely, it’s pretty hard to write all the stuff you want to write about!
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Haha, I see now. And yeah, that’s quite true! There are certainly things I’ve encountered in life that I want to write about, so maybe you’ll be reading about that soon.
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Cool!
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Oh yeah, did you know that they’re translating the Katanagatari light novels? (First one comes out in November)
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! No I didn’t, but thanks for the info!
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Yeah! I thought I’d never get a chance to read them!
(Since its one of my favorite anime, from my favorite author, I think I’ll grab it when it comes out)
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Meanwhile, I’m still debating on whether the experience would be better in Chinese or English.
Oh yeah, do you happen to use Discord or anything? I feel like we’re always chatting in the comment sections. XD
There is a server for anibloggers, if you’re interested, though I’m not super familiar with how it works.
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Oh… I pretty much just made one this week.
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I’m interested!
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Nice! I got this figured out now and this is supposed to be the link: https://discord.gg/cvcXXD9
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Nice!
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